I have finally come to terms with something - my pride. Since the age of 10 I have wanted to direct films. But I also wanted to write them. You hear all the time that to write and direct is hard because essentially you are splitting the amount of time and energy you can give to two entirely different jobs.
Last week I finally set down my pride and decided to give myself the chance to practise directing and only directing. It would not only be good for my humility but good for my filmmaking. If I can focus on one thing I'll learn more.
I asked writers to send me any short films or plays they had written to see if I could work on something.
Incredibly, I got an amazing short film script sent in almost immediately by Allison Davies, which was perfect for exploring camera moves and focusing on shots I wanted and what I wanted to put across with image.
It's fantastic when you don't have to worry about writing it, how your brain is suddenly open to so much more - like what could symbolize certain words and how you can portray that with visuals, how you will spend time opening the scene, what lens you will choose to emphasise the themes and story.
I start by reading the script. Then I read it again and make some notes. I also start to doodle out shot scenes as they come into my head. I mix my doodles with notes on symbols and themes. I tend to work on each scene separately but not necessarily in any order.
I spend an awful lot of time not actually 'doing' anything that looks like work. I wander around thinking mostly. I think the scenes through in my head and churn them round before I start making it concrete.
I have no budget but I am really looking forward to making this film. I am very lucky to have been given such a beautiful short to direct.
I really hope I do it justice.