Alone

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It's a well known fact that writing is a lonely activity. Writers struggle between two emotions - the need to be alone in order to create and the overbearing sense of isolation that can bring. It's not just writers who suffer from this problem.

Filmmaking is technically a team activity. When you think of a film production, you tend to think of a cast and a crew, a director surrounded by lots of people. That is true for larger productions but what with the drop in price of equipment and the rise in quality of cameras, more and more filmmakers are becoming a one person job, especially freelancers. Even if they do hire crew, it's usually not very many people and only for the job.

I love making films. I miss it when I'm not doing it but I have to admit...it's a lonely business.

When I make films for organisations, I spend a lot of time driving long distances by myself, staying in hotel rooms alone and even when I'm filming interviews and clients, I am alone setting up the equipment, alone troubleshooting and alone in the understanding of what it is that I do. I meet people for a day, smile, film them, enjoy their company and then head home. At home I spend hours watching the footage, searching for the right music and cutting it all together. Alone.

Then there are the short films that I make - scripts I write. Those projects are probably the loneliest. The paradox is that I can't create unless I am by myself but I feel desperately cut off from the world while I do it. I think that is the price every artist pays for making the things they love.

Isn't it a strange fact that the isolation and the feeling of not fitting in that artists face, is the very thing that drives them to create.