Do I Want Success?

Where is that line between your work as art and your art as work? 



I've never wanted success. Well, that's not strictly true. I've always wanted to be successful at filmmaking. I've always wanted to do the best I can. I want people to see my work and think "She's good at what she does."

But as for becoming successful in terms of prestige or money , I've never really cared. I didn't want to earn lots of money. Many people misunderstood me when from the age of 10 I started declaring that I wanted to be a film director in Hollywood. What I didn't know was that when I told people this they thought I wanted to be famous. They thought I wanted a lucrative career.

Those thoughts never even crossed my mind. My thought process was quite simple: I saw films, I wanted to make films, I heard they were made in Hollywood, therefore I felt that to be a director of any worth I should be a director there. When I decided I wanted to be a filmmaker I didn't even understand the money surrounding the industry. I just wanted to tell stories with film. 

Now in my early 30s I'm straddling the line between freelancing, selling my skills and creating the films I want to make. 

What does success mean? I think to most people it means becoming well-known, receiving credit for their work or becoming wealthy. 

To me it means fulfilling my duties, seeing out my vision and putting others first as I do it. Never at the cost of what's really important to me. 

What does success mean to you?