Do I Want Success?

Where is that line between your work as art and your art as work? 

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I've never wanted success. Well, that's not strictly true. I've always wanted to be successful at filmmaking. I've always wanted to do the best I can. I want people to see my work and think "She's good at what she does."

But as for becoming successful in terms of prestige or money , I've never really cared. I didn't want to earn lots of money. Many people misunderstood me when from the age of 10 I started declaring that I wanted to be a film director in Hollywood. What I didn't know was that when I told people this they thought I wanted to be famous. They thought I wanted a lucrative career.

Those thoughts never even crossed my mind. My thought process was quite simple: I saw films, I wanted to make films, I heard they were made in Hollywood, therefore I felt that to be a director of any worth I should be a director there. When I decided I wanted to be a filmmaker I didn't even understand the money surrounding the industry. I just wanted to tell stories with film. 

Now in my early 30s I'm straddling the line between freelancing, selling my skills and creating the films I want to make. 

What does success mean? I think to most people it means becoming well-known, receiving credit for their work or becoming wealthy. 

To me it means fulfilling my duties, seeing out my vision and putting others first as I do it. Never at the cost of what's really important to me. 

What does success mean to you?